Lone Angel

she sits alone

content

the world outside

consumes

energy

straight from her lifeless body

an angel of sorts

to touch the lives of others

briefly

moving on

without a tear to shed

just the fond memories

of the girl who once was

passing through

passing by

not one to stay

through all the times

fondness in their minds

that is what she preys

they only think good of her

as she walks away

today she sits alone

Loves replacement

I stand over the counter

munching on crackers and hummus

contemplating Loves existence, awaiting the call

from Loves replacement

nah, Love is not mine

Love claims its independence

and spats in the face of any

who requests too much attention

the world meant to cater

to Loves time clock

Loves watch Loves needs

all these years have taught me so

nay, Love is not mine

Love is on its own

as I wipe the crumbs into the sink

running hand in hand out the door

with Loves replacement.

Late

Like a dream

showing up to class naked

you run out the door

Late.

Disoriented and hungry

Scrambling

for composure

Hoping no one will notice

the pillow crease

running down your cheek

you breeze through the entryway

Greeted with

'We were worried about you'

'I'm sorry', you reply

Resuming the position

of catch up all day

and into the night

you can't help but wonder

if they are thinking

Man, must be nice to sleep late

Indulgence

Sometimes...

Sometimes I am

an extremist...

emotional

powerful

empowered

extravagant

indulgent

lavishing,

in the bliss of life

Sometimes...

Sometimes I am

an extremist...

over and over

Again.

Life Expectation

Everything as it should be

she has grown

athletic, intellectual, spiritual

right on course,

she excelled in her education

followed with love bound dreams

her father proudly walked her down the isle

as he handed her off

to her hearts' sweet

they danced through the night

into their future

building the foundation

of a fairytale lifetime

biological clock ticking

reproductive syndrome

they bare three angelic ones

pronounced titles filled

daughter, wife, lover, mother

she lives as expected

they get what they long for

as time runs out

she aches for silence

quiet halls

a moment, too short

to reflect self

without the needs and distractions

of the loved ones of which she

yearns to please

caged by her freedoms

remembering past times

of dreams yet to come

dreams seldom forgotten

yet perceived as just an imagery

out of proportion

as time slips by

she bends

dropping to her knees

lying kisses on the eyelids

of the seeds from her womb

she weeps

closing the door softly

behind her

she wishes them better

one final good night

Off Kilter

the sun rises from the south

sets in the north
rivers run upstream
back into the lakes and mountains
rain drifts upward
into a cloudless sky
evaporating
heat floods the existence
when night becomes day

the world becomes a place
where animals roam freely
undisturbed by mankind
flowers and trees no longer bloom
wilting back into themselves
imploding down into the earth
nothing is as it was

as everything seems off today

Just Tired

I am just

I am tired

weakness consuming

I want to love you

I want to give you my all

I open the doors

inviting you in

to take hold of the woman

I was

I am

I will be

for me, in return

to love you unconditionally

I do

I am just

I am tired

of opening my heart

exposed

vulnerable

invisible

I am just

I am tired

Autumn Rising

Kissing the nectars of succulent summer

Good-bye

Replaced with

Crisp, Cool Nights

sun beaming through branches bare

Autumn rising

Pumpkin delight

Pumpkin seeds

Pumpkin pie

Pumpkin quiche

Figs with sweet honey

Nuts galore

Collard Greens

Leeks and

Peas

Soup, let it shine!

Porcini

Butternut Squash

Roasted Tomato and Red Pepper

Red Plush Wine devine

Cranberries and Yams

Sweet Potatoes too!

Apples consuming

Fugi, Cortland, Gala, Red Delicious

Embracing the warmth

Lurking behind the comforting door

of warm Cinnamon Apple Pie baking

Cider in sight

Fall Colors Alight!

Doxy

desire to love, be loved

hold tight the encompassing

moon of fate

lying nude under beckoning angst

raptured in comforting arms

holding tight

lovers abode

shadows weep window trace

coolness drifting along

heated bodies embraced

sleep easy rest

Dreaming haze

passionate, forsaken

rising sun, transfixed light

she turns to the lover

not of hearts' pine

eyes closed

muted

lovers entwine

mourning kiss of dew

It is I

Maybe it is I

who cares too much

who loves too deeply

who knows no boundaries

who is too passionate

who can not hold her tongue

who gives too freely

who holds back too much

who speed rails through life

who is careless with her heart

who seeks love time and again

who pushes it away

who finds it in the crease of each smile

who forgives too often

who can save herself

who already has

maybe it is I

Day Light

it was day light

the sun shone bright

in the cool autumn air

you looked at me

tilting your head, observing

you said

you look wonderful today

the blue of your shirt

capturing the intensity of your eyes

you look vibrant and happy

it was later that i realized

you had never seen me

in the day light

At Once

At once,

her hair was long shiny golden locks

At once,

her eyes were big blue ambiguous diamonds

At once,

her body long lean flexible agile

At once,

her frame curvaceous sensual seductive

At once,

her skin flawless pale pink dimpled

At once,

her lips pouty plush inviting

At once,

she danced gracefully in circles of delight

under the moonlit starry nights

At once,

her voice was intense pure finely tuned

to the key stroke of the piano

At once,

she stole the heart of every man

with the whisk of her grin twirl of her finger

At once,

she was a dreamer

At once,

her dreams all came true

At once,

was a long time ago...

I'm here, my friend

Place it here, this angst, this pain

hidden beneath you

you carry the spite

of wrongful gain

place it here,

within me,

to hold the burden

of which has stolen your light

taking it in, myself

to buckle down

under chains intertwined,

captured

in the tormented minds

of the unfaithful

bare it down

pass it along

place your heavy heart

on the ground stone

of our friendship

entrust in me,

to nurture this bereavement

absorbing it, I vow

to sooth it smooth

into silken cashmere

of which I will tuck you in

safely

under softness

New

Smiles Spreading

Smile spread

Smile contagious

be It

bent and crooked

or

wide and bright

It spreads to me

seeping through you

in the light of day

dark of night

Smile wide

to a friend

a stranger

right or wrong

may the Smile spread

one by one

Still My Heart

quiet stillness rests in my heart

the thumpty thump

ribcages rest

Love-abound riveted past

heart a flutter, butterfly beauty

wing span spread

with ease and grace

opening your palm,

blowing wishes in the evening breeze

releasing gently

to pitter patter on my new found

wings

harmony

whisked within

serene surrender obliged

my heart hushed